Just Some Thoughts

So I think I am worrying. I am REALLY trying not to. I KNOW it is a sin. I KNOW God has a plan for us. I am just freaking out over it!! Why?!?! Yeah ~ that is the question of the day. I think about Greg's job ~ I freak out. I think about this house ~ I freak out. I think about moving ~ I freak out. Now here is the deal though, I am not concerned about any of them per se....I just really HATE the unknown. I am such a baby. I am going through a stage in my life where I have to rely solely on the grace of God. No it is not a stage ~ this is how life is SUPPOSED to be. I have to rely on His complete providence. I have to trust that He will provide for our needs. Please don't misunderstand me ~ we are not going without, we are not in need, we are not even uncomfortable (well OK I am) - but not physically. We are so truly blessed that it is an embarrassing shame that I am feeling, acting and talking this way. I just struggle A LOT with change. I am really excited about the possibility of moving (and certainly being with my husband), but I get so worked up about the unknown VARIABLES. And man....there certainly seem to be a lot of those. Oh Lord Jesus, please rule in my life. Please guide me, calm me, help me not be so full of myself and be more full of you.