Romans 7:19-21
For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me.

This is me - every day. I am getting so freaking sick of it too. Everything I want to do (and pray to do) I just seem to not be able to do. I know I am sinful. I know I am in need of saving. The interesting part is that, just now, in the shower, it really hit me. I am no good. There is hardly a bit of good in me. Oh yeah, from time to time, I do some nice things - I may even look nice. But I am not. I am a sinner - SAVED BY GRACE - THANK YOU JESUS! This was the first time (ever?) that I realized that no matter how "I" try, I will always be a sinner, full of sin. I need Jesus more at this very moment than I have ever needed Him. As I look at myself, in the light of my sin, I am sickened. I do not like what I see. And yet, despite that, God so loved ME that He gave His one and only Son, so that I could be forgiven from my sins (John 3:16 - paraphrase). As I sit here and play through my head all the things I have done (my sins), I know that this is the devil trying to win. And, frankly, I have done nothing short of let him. This stops now. I can do all thing through Him who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13), with man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26) and I will over come this. I will be kind and loving and compassionate. I will not lie. I will do things that bring glory to God.

Father in Heaven, please help me.