I was driving with Grant in the van today and he told me his boots were hurting him. I told him I thought is was his short socks inside his boots. For a few minutes he was quiet, then he announced that his boots weren't hurting anymore. I got out of the car to get him out and noticed a sock on the floor. I looked at him, he gave me that sly smile of his and held up the other sock. I guess he figured out how to make his boots stop hurting - take off the socks!

Smart kid.

Here I go like Gideon again. Was reading this morning about how after he conquered all his enemies, he took one earring from each person from the plunder and made an ephod. He did it to commemorate the victory (that God gave him - with 300 men against 135,000 men) over his enemies. However, the memorial was quickly turned into an idol of worship - instead of worshiping the true God.

So, I was thinking......is this what I am doing? Am I taking the victory (approval) and making an idol of the "ideal home"? Am I so focused on the end result that I miss the journey along the way? I sure feel that way. I have been praying that God's peace would descend upon me as we wait for His perfect timing and His perfect place. I keep getting tunnel vision, with my sights focused on "the house" and I know I am missing joy in the process. I know that sounds silly even as I type it, but it is so true. God loves me (and you). He wants me (and you) to trust Him with ALL the details of life. He can handle it. I mean, He DID create the entire world AND set it up to sustain us. He is so AWESOME.

Taking this thought a little further.....I keep getting frustrated. I get house listings emailed to me weekly. Sometimes they come daily. There have been numerous times that we have seen something, called to schedule an appointment only to be told an offer was already pending. AUGH! That is so frustrating. It does make me think (thankfully) that God has something better in store. And I am thankful! If I didn't trust that God was completely in control of this, I would lose my mind! I know if it is not meant to be, the door is going to close. My frustration comes from my human nature. I want to know! BUT I need to be still. Be still - and KNOW that He is God. Just be still, Michelle - Be still.

Girls, Girls, Girls

Krystel is pregnant!! We are pulling for a girl - but we will love this precious bundle not matter what it is.

Tonight as we were talking about it, Jadyn says, "Why does Krystel have to have another baby? She has Spencer and Seth. I can just go up there and be their sister." Oh, OK, sure.

Then Grace says, "Are we going to be able to go to the baby shower?" Ummmm....if we have one, we will be giving it, so.....yes you can go.

On a totally unrelated note - Grace just stuck her head over the ledge and said, through tears, that she is sad about thinking about moving. When I asked why, she said she has so many memories here and she doesn't want to drive by this house and think about them. I reminded her that having memories is a GOOD thing. Especially when the memories are good ones. We just have to take the memories with us to the new place - and then make more.

And good ole Dad, yelled from the bedroom, "Grace! Go to bed!" Oh - he just doesn't get it. We are girls and girls do everything through their emotions - whether or not they want to. Enough said.

More on Gideon

You will probably be sick of this by the time this house process is over, but......

This morning I read that the LORD was going to deliver the Midianites into the hands of Gideon and only 300 men! But not only did God tell Gideon this, he also told him that if he, Gideon, was scared he should go down to the camp of the Midianites and what he would hear would encourage him. So Gideon went. Know what that means? He was scared! So am I. When Gideon went, he heard (I'm paraphrasing) that the Midianites would be handed over to Gideon. He praised the LORD and went back - encouraged.

I know that God hears my prayers. I know that God knows the desires of my heart. It is no secret. I know He has a plan. I just need some encouragement. Encouragement to forge ahead. God speaks - I know firsthand. I want to hear His voice. Speak Lord, I am listening.

What a Nice Night!

I had the most amazing snuggle, Bible and prayer time with my kids tonight before bed. We were all crammed in the girl's bed and we read about God's amazing creation of the world. What an amazing gift that is to us. And to know - if we can even grasp our minds around - that while God was creating all that he had us on his minds. Not us as a whole, but us as in Michelle, and Greg, and Jacob, and Grace, and Jadyn, and Grant, and you. Wow!!! That NEVER ceases to amaze me. And it made for a nice talk with my kids about God's love. Which then drifted on over to the house thing. Still waiting to hear from you, LORD......don't really know exactly what to do. However, I realize patience is involved - and since it has only been 3 days.....I will certainly wait.

Greg is cracking me up. He has pulled a chair over in front of the fireplace, where he has a fire going, so that he can put his feet up while he drinks a glass of wine. That dude really knows how to relax. But before you go thinking he is a boozer - he is just finishing the half bottle of wine left over from CHRISTmas. He says it is good for his heart or something.

Feeling like Gideon

This morning I am feeling like Gideon. I was just reading about him in Judges and was reflecting on how I am like him. I have seen God bring me through countless things. I have even heard His voice. Yet, I still waiver. Why? Why am I so sinful in my faith? I KNOW that God is. I know that He is in control. I know that He has a plan. Why am I like this? I feel like I keep asking God for a sign. Despite seeing His goodness time after time, I still keep putting the wool out and asking.

We have received verbal approval of our mortgage. Which means we have started looking for houses. OK - a house. Yesterday we found 4 that we were interested in, only to find out that all 4 had offers pending. Talk about stressing me out. Then I remembered how faithful God has been and I stopped worrying. Then Greg was looking and talking and my stomach got all tied into knots again. Here I go again. I do not want to be like this. As I reflect back on EVERY place we have lived, God has provided. I have no doubt that He will continue to provide. I think it is more my desire to know what and when, rather than actually trusting that He will provide. Does that make sense?

LORD, I give You this entire process. From start to finish, it is completely in Your hands. I know You have a plan for us and I trust You completely. My human nature seems to get the better of me (too often) and I worry (or wonder) about EXACTLY what that plan is. Please forgive me for this. Please help me to rest in Your providential care. Please help me to eagerly await what You have in store for us. I love You, LORD!

On a completely unrelated note......my mom's car was broken into while she was at work last night. Early this morning, she called and called my dad to tell him and cancel the credit cards, but he slept through all 10 calls. Finally, she called me and asked me to go over and tell him. So I did and he was able to cancel the card. I am so thankful that I live close to my parents, so that I can help them in all situations. I am so blessed! Thank You, LORD!!!

Important Lessons from Judges (and the Rest of the BIBLE)

This morning I started reading in the Old Testament - Judges. This book of the Bible tells about Israel's repetitive disobedience to God, and God's great mercy to them. He does not tolerate their disobedience - He punishes them. But He does not destroy them. They ARE His chosen people. But they have to learn - He is God and they must serve Him ALONE. Same is true with me (and you). GOD IS. The sooner we learn this and trust Him alone, the better off we are. The first 2 chapters talk about the generation of Joshua dying off and the next generation rising up, but not knowing, serving or trusting God. It really drove home to me the importance of teaching my children about God. I can't for the life of me figure out why He would bother, but the truth is that He loves me (and you) more than anything. That is why He does what He does. Pure love. He gives us what we do not deserve, what we could never earn or never repay. Grace and mercy. Completely undeserved. Yet, given freely - by accepting what His precious Son, Jesus, did for me (and you) on the cross. Jesus was fully obedient to God - even doing what He did not want to do - suffering so that we could be free. Free from the wages of sin - which is death. We have complete forgiveness from our sins through the blood of Jesus. Do you realize that? Do you know what an amazing gift that is? It is there for me (and you)!!!!!! Jesus is there for me (and you). Just like God never left the Israelites (oh, He hid His presence from them, but He never left), Jesus will never leave you. Sweet children of mine.....know that Jesus loves you. He went to the cross with your name on his heart. He suffered for you. Don't turn away from Him. Accept His priceless gift. Know, that you know, that you know, that you will be with Him for all eternity. It is too important to neglect. Pray....

Dear Jesus, I am a sinner, completely unworthy of all you have done. In spite of that, I know that you love me. Please forgive me. Please make your home in my heart. Thank you, Jesus for all you have done. Please be my Lord and Savior. In your precious Name, Amen.

That's all it takes. Jesus is yours!!! You have freedom from your sins - forgiveness from your sins. Does this mean you won't sin anymore? Heck no. We are all sinners. The Holy Spirit will help you say no to temptation, but we all still make mistakes. If you mess up, go - at once - to the feet of Jesus. Ask His forgiveness and be restored. He loves you and will NEVER give up on you!

But, there will come a time when it will be too late. Jesus IS coming back. He will take His children home to live FOREVER with Him in Heaven. You DO NOT want to miss that, I promise!!!! If Jesus returns, and you have not accepted Him, you will be separated from God FOREVER. Forever is a very, very long time. You DO NOT want eternal separation from God. This is known as hell.

I love you. I love you more than words can say. Whoever you are, whoever is reading this, I am talking to you. Jesus loves you and so do I! Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Trust Him with all you have. He is all you need.

I LOVE YOU!!!!

Sex Education Pop Quiz

This morning I was sitting with Jacob when Jadyn came downstairs with her pajama top unbuttoned. I told her she needed to keep herself covered up because those were her privates. Jacob said, "Uh-uh. That's her virginia!" Oh my word - I cannot stop laughing even now! He remembered but associated it with a word he already knew. Virginia - I am still cracking up!

The Girl with TWO Moms

I am so sure that Jadyn is thrilled to have 2 moms. Yes - 2. Myself (the one who bore her) and Grace (the one who loves to "guide" her). The girls were just cleaning their closet and Grace was done with her part and came downstairs and sat by me. Jadyn stuck her head over the ledge and asked Grace where she should put something that was both of theirs. Grace said, "Think, Jadyn. Think." Jadyn went back into the room. I told Grace that was not a very nice way to talk to her sister, and she kept on reading. Moments later, she tore upstairs, was up there a few minutes and then came back down. She said, " I apologized to Jadyn for how I talked to her. I know I shouldn't have been mean to her. I told her I would help her do her part." Then she leaned to my ear and whispered, "I also told her that the more time she spent screwing around in her room, the less time she would have to play." Oh, Jadyn is such a lucky girl!!!!

Read this for our devotion this morning. I was amazed at how our lives have lined up with this. Check it out.

Deuteronomy 8:7-18

7 For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land—a land with brooks, streams, and deep springs gushing out into the valleys and hills; 8 a land with wheat and barley, vines and fig trees, pomegranates, olive oil and honey; 9 a land where bread will not be scarce and you will lack nothing; a land where the rocks are iron and you can dig copper out of the hills. [WE ARE GETTING READY TO START THE HOUSE BUYING PROCESS]

10 When you have eaten and are satisfied, praise the LORD your God for the good land he has given you. 11 Be careful that you do not forget the LORD your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. 12 Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, 13 and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, 14 then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. [TO ILLINOIS AND BACK HOME AGAIN] 15 He led you through the vast and dreadful wilderness, [LEAR] that thirsty and waterless land, with its venomous snakes and scorpions. [LINDSAY] He brought you water out of hard rock. 16 He gave you manna to eat in the wilderness, something your ancestors had never known, to humble and test you so that in the end it might go well with you. [FOOD STAMPS] 17 You may say to yourself, “My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me.” 18 But remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his covenant, which he swore to your ancestors, as it is today.

I love how I can read God's Word and see my life played out. I love that I serve the ALMIGHTY GOD, whose Hand is on every single part of my life. I will praise His Great name forever.

Sex Education

Last night we started sex education with our kids. We read, as a family, the book, "The Story of Me", which talks about how a child is formed. The book is geared towards 3-5 year olds, but it is interesting that I still had a hard time saying 'penis' and 'vagina' to my kids. These are part of the bodies God created and it should not be awkward, yet the corruption of this world has taken something God created for beauty and made it seem awkward. Jacob giggled at the mention of 'penis' and Grace said she felt that the book was 'inappropriate'. How do they already know to feel this way? Lord, please help Greg and I as we navigate through these waters. Help us to teach our children the importance of purity and using their bodies to glorify you. Help them to see why.

They funny part of this was that Greg stayed home from church yesterday because he was not feeling well. He told me to leave Grant home with him. Before I left, I asked him to read the above-mentioned book because I wanted to read it to the kids. Apparently he misunderstood what I asked because he read it to Grant while we were at church. When we came home and I asked him if he read it, he said yes. Then we talked about reading it to the kids and he told me he already read it to Grant - isn't that what I asked him to do? No.....then he told me how weird he felt saying 'vagina' to Grant. Oh geez.

Life is Like That

This is the song in my mind this morning:

What a Mighty God we serve!
What a Mighty God we serve!
Angels bow before Him,
Heaven and Earth adore Him,
What a Mighty God we serve!

We have had some struggles recently. Oh - they are certainly small considering what other people are going through, but nevertheless, they are struggles. Sunday night one of my children left the van door open all night and when I went to start it, it was dead. So Greg jumped it and on we went. Yesterday, while I was working, I found out that someone had hacked my email account. First I tried to have a friend change my password - that didn't work. After work, I sat in the school library for 2.5 hours trying to change my password. I could not. It was more than frustrating. So I decided to open a new email account and move all my contacts. Ugh. What a painful job that was. But it is done and I like my new email better. Then this morning when Greg went out to start his van, he tried to start mine (thank you LORD) and it was dead again! Great. But my first thought was.....well, at least I have Greg's car I can drive. And Greg's first thought....take CASH and get a new battery. What a blessing that we could have these types of thoughts, and not panic as to where to get the money to get a new battery. Thank you LORD. Then we sat down to do our devotion and it was on regaining our balance. It said, "Sometimes life is like that. Something unexpected upsets our routine, and we are knocked off balance. Perhaps its [someone hacking into your email account or a dead battery]." See? Sometimes life IS like that. But PRAISE GOD, that we have the ability (although we don't always recognize it) to praise Him in those situations. Another example of this is Greg's sister, Alicia, who just got in a really bad accident (not her fault), and it is going to take 4-6 weeks to fix her car, not to mention the huge amount of money involved. Now - that knocks you off balance. We are praying for her in this. We are praying that her eyes stay on God, not on the situation. It is like Peter when he wanted to walk on the water. he could do the impossible if he kept his eyes on Jesus, but as soon as he took his eyes off Jesus and looked at the circumstances around him - he started sinking. Life is like that too. If we look at all the (especially unexpected) situations around us, we will definitely sink. But if our eyes stay on Jesus - trusting Him for everything - we will not be swallowed by the situations. He will help us through them.

What a MIGHTY God we serve!!!!!

Visiting with Tom

Last night Tom came over. He was working on my laptop and Jacob (age 9) popped over to him and asked, "Hey Tom, have you seen my 'berries'?" Tom's head popped up and he looked at me, as if to say "What?!?!" That was exactly, what I was thinking. All of a sudden Jacob ran away and then ran back. He was holding in his had his Barry Sanders football cards. Oh. Those were the "barrys" he was talking about. Good thing.

As Tom continued to work on my computer, Jadyn (age 5) came over and sat next to me. Shortly she was laying across my lap with her head on Tom's shoulder. Then she asked Tom if he needed her help. She said, "You just have to "X" out of that." I guess she is learning some stuff in computer class at school.

Jacob's New Business

Yesterday Jacob came home from school and rushed out to shovel snow. He decided to go to the neighbor's houses and offer to shovel their driveways for $3. By the time he was finished yesterday, he had made $18! And he only shoveled 3 driveways - the first one gave him $10, the second one gave him $5 and the third one paid his asking price. He really did a great job! This morning he rushed through breakfast to get out and start again. I am so impressed by his desire to work hard for his money. Praise God for that! So far he has only done one house, but the lady paid him $7 and asked for his name and phone number so she can use him again. Now - THAT is impressive! Not only is he working hard and making money, but he is building references too.

Tonight, after dinner, Greg asked the kids to go into the playroom, close the door and decide together what we would have for dessert. He said he would get them whatever they wanted as long as they all agreed on it and did not fight. The conversation lasted no more than 30 seconds before fighting began. After about a minute of that, the "no dessert" clause was enacted. Too bad that they couldn't work together to decide on a dessert. But, I did feel a little bit guilty eating the chocolate creme pie Greg brought home for him and me. Just a little.

Then we watched a 1946 movie called "Courage of Lassie", starring a very young Elizabeth Taylor. It was so cheesy and Greg and I laughed at the sets and how movies used to be. They sure have come a long way. Other than Jacob, the kids liked it. After it was over Greg asked each of them what part they liked the best.
Grant: The coyote
Grace: The dog kissing
Jacob: The shooting
Jadyn: When the girl died (she didn't die, but fell and hit her head - but seriously?)

Then Jacob said some smart alec comment to Greg (which I cannot for the life of me remember), which caused Greg to send Jacob to his room. After the fifth (yes, I said 5th) time of Greg telling Jacob, I stepped in. Jacob and I took a trip to my room with the spoon (uh-huh) and after he climbed into bed we had a (surprisingly) nice talk about respect. I gave him 2 examples - one of a respectful kid and one of a disrespectful kid. I asked which he would prefer to be. We went over Colossians 3:20, which tells children to obey their parents in EVERYTHING (not just what they feel like obeying). And why should they do this? Because it pleases the LORD. I also explained to him that when he honors his parents, he is also honoring God, and that is what He calls us to do. At the beginning of the conversation, Jacob was plain mad. Telling me that I hated him and that was why I treat him like I do. I explained to him that because I love him so much and want the best for him, I expect more from him than a parent who didn't care. I (OK Greg and I are) am trying to set him up to be successful, not to fail. I also used the example of the employee, who when his boss told him to do something, chose not to do it. I asked Jacob how many times do you think it would take for the boss to fire the guy? He answered 2. As I kissed him goodnight for the 100th time, I think he finally got it. I think he actually felt bad. My goal was not to "make him feel bad", rather to show him that his behavior was not good and will not be tolerated. I pray that it sticks. I can definitely say that the words I spoke tonight were not my own - I am so thankful to God for that. It was as if I really had some intelligence in what I was saying. All glory to God for that!!!

On another note, Greg's sister, Alicia, got in a big car accident today. Praise the LORD, she and the kids are fine, but the car may be totaled. I was talking with her tonight and she told me that when she was buckling her kids in, she took extra time to make sure they were in good and tight. She took so much time that her 3 year old asked her what she was doing. She responded saying that "Mommy just feels like she needs to make sure you are strapped in tight." Oh, praise God in Heaven for His Mighty Hand of protection that was on them. I told her that much too. And she agreed. I pray that her eyes are opened. I pray that this incident, while absolutely horrible, works to show her the light of Jesus. That she turns her life, and the control of it, over to the One and ONLY that already has the control. I pray that she sees God and His Precious Son, Jesus and the Holy Spirit for who they really are - God in ONE. I love Alicia as though she was my own sister and I pray that this experience will not just pass her by. I know God is working!!!

Starting the New Year (2012)

Wow! The start of a new year and I have not posted anything in so long. I have a lot to catch up on, so this will be choppy and definitely out of sequence, but here nevertheless.

I got a job! Yay! I am the lunchtime recess lady at the kid's school. And I love it! The interesting thing? I think it is making me a better mom. I cannot yell at these kids (unless they are really doing something wrong), so I have to be patient and ingenious when I deal with them. I like the stretching it is making me do - because then I can take that home and use it with my own kiddos. Love, love, love being at the school.

Because of this, Grant gets to spend extra special time with Grandpa, at what is referred to as "Grandpa School". It is awesome because they both love being together and Grandpa has really been teaching Grant things. Recently Grant learned to put his shoes on and to get on the toilet by himself to poop. Previously he learned to spell "boy" and "Grant". Grandpa is really doing a great job and I can't ever tell him enough how much I love him and appreciate all he is doing for me!!! I could never pay him enough for what he is doing, but I do try to spend some (emphasis on some) time in his barn. Grant is spunky, for sure. He is so stinking cute and then so stinking naughty all wrapped up in one amazing little dude. He thinks he is 9 - sometimes he does lower his age to 5 - but he is only 3 1/2!!! He loves his older brother and wants to do EVERYTHING Jacob does!!! Grant is going to school in the fall and is already excited. It is awesome how God lined that up too. Grant will go to school 2 days a week, and the other 3 will be with Grandpa. He ended up with the same preschool teacher that all the other kids had - wow - even though she closed her doors and works somewhere else now. But I had a one hour gap of time when preschool got out, but when I was still at work. I found an awesome lady, who lives exactly between Grant's school and my school, who will walk to school and pick Grant up, give him lunch and only charge me $3 per hour! Amazing - thank you LORD! We went there yesterday so Grant could meet her and the other kids, and I am so excited about it. Better yet, so is Grant! He loved telling my kids about where he was going when he finally gets to go to school.

Grace is playing Mrs. King in her class's presentation of MLK's "I Have a Dream". She has quite a large speaking role and has already memorized it. I love that she does it with inflection in her voice, too. She really is very talented. On a different note, she is having friend issues. She has a friend that has been leaving her out quite a bit lately. This is really bothering her (as if it wouldn't, right?) and I wish I could really do something. Instead, we have had some nice talks about the fact that God is the only One who will never let us down. People are human. They are sinners in need of God's saving grace. None of is is perfect and we can't be. As such, we are all destined to let others down from time to time. However, God will NEVER do that. I love how in tune with the LORD Grace is. She knows His love for her and I am so thankful for that. I pray that this type of situation will not happen very often, but as they do, my prayer is that it will make her faith stronger, her love deeper and her own compassion for others unstoppable. Grace is an amazing girl, with a heart so big. I am very blessed to be her momma. What a gift! Oh yeah, another note on my Gracie-girl......she is becoming a woman (much too soon if you ask Greg or me). We are starting to develop boobies. I know this will be embarrassing, but I have to keep the record of such developments. Sorry, sweetie.

Jadyn is working hard at becoming a reader and a writer. She is doing well, but really needs to slow it down and take her time. She is very much a social butterfly at school and would, most likely, rather talk and play than read or write. Every morning she runs downstairs, grabs a blanket and sits in front of the heater and snuggles. Then she gets up, comes over to me and asks me to hold her on the chair. I love to snuggle with my kids. I love even more that they want me to snuggle them. While I was at school yesterday, I had one of the 3 male teachers come up to me and tell me he was just tackled by a kindergarten girl. Knowing, of course, who he was speaking of I asked, "Was she strong?" He responded, "Oh yeah." That's my Jadyn girl.

Jacob is playing travel basketball and doing a great job. His coach and I do not get along - he hates me and I don't think he is very good or fair. But, nevertheless, Jacob is an awesome player. He is tall and strong and can shoot great from outside and can rip down rebounds - he fights for them. I have also recently learned that he is the kid in high demand on the kickball field at recess because he has the best kick. Pretty cool, huh? He is really good at math and spelling, but really does not like to read. I keep praying that something will click - that he will find a type of book that he REALLY wants to read and can't put down. It will happen, I know it will. Jacob is also very into football. It is neat, though, to watch and listen to him and Greg talk football. It amazes me that they can both keep names, teams, positions, and stats in their heads, but then have such a hard time remembering things that really matter. Guys are so weird. Jacob likes a lot of football dudes, but I am really glad to see him interested in Tim Tebow. I am even more interested in listening to Greg talk to him about being a real leader and standing up for what you believe in, even if the world doesn't like what you are saying. This is the REAL stuff.

I feel so busy these days. I am sure it is because my day is broken up with work. But I love it!!! There is hardly time before work to do anything and and hardly time after work and before I pick the kids up. Sometimes I wonder if I am just making excuses though. Oh, I have so much to do, I just can't do anything. That is a lie. Before CHRISTmas, I was working out everyday. I was doing the 30-day shred. I felt great. Since the new year, I have not been doing much of anything, especially since I was sick with the stomach flu, then an upper respiratory thing that still has me down a bit. But I NEED to get back to it. I need the energy back.

A week or so ago, I had the stomach flu. I have not been that sick is a very long time. It was not funny, but Greg made me laugh. He taped signs to the bedroom door that said, "Stop! Don't Come In! Mom SICK! Call her if you need her." I had to talk to my kiddos on the phone! And every time he came in, he sprayed a 1/2 of a can of Lysol on everything. Needless to say, no one else got sick. Praise the LORD!!! And thank you Greg. I would not have wanted anyone else in my family to have gotten that - it was awful. I actually pulled muscles in my neck from dry heaving so much. Oh....yuk!

We are in the process of looking for a house, kind of. We feel that it is time. We have started the financing process and are waiting for approval. Then, we will start to look for a new home. I am ready to have my own place. Greg is ready to spend less money and have the tax write-off. But, it sure feels like it is time. We are praying for God's will in this whole process. We are trusting the He will lead us to where we are supposed to be. Clearly, we have our thoughts on where and what. But, we plan our course, but HE determines our steps. We will trust Him alone and He will lead us to where we are supposed to be. Praise God! He has so provided for us all along, there is no reason to even have a shred of doubt now.

I guess for now, that will sum it up. But I am going to make a better effort of doing just a quick daily update. I recently found an old journal (hand written) that I kept when Jacob and Grace were 4 and 3, and Jadyn was just a baby. I was reading it to the kids and they just laughed and laughed at how silly they were. They love to hear stories about themselves, so I am going to try and keep this updated. Until later.....