An Admission

So here it it. I live vicariously through my children. I think all parents  do. Some of us deny it, while others admit it. But mostly, we deny it. I am deciding to admit that I do. Why, you ask, am I admitting this? It's time. Past time. I love to watch my kids play sports. I love the idea of them being a part of a team. I love the idea that they could lead a team. Maybe it is because I never allowed myself to do that. I was not a leader. I was a wallflower. I was a follower. But I see something different in my kids and I love it. So, this divulging is coming as a result of an injury to Jacob, that happened on the SAME DAY that he made the freshman basketball team. Long story short....Jacob sprained his hip flexor doing sprints at a speed and agility training hours before the final day of basketball tryouts. I didn't (really) have doubts that he could make the team, but you never know. So we were very excited when he did. But the pain that he played through made it apparent there was a problem. As such, Jacob has not played with his team yet. He has been at every practice, learning plays and being a part of the team. But he has yet to play. They have even already had one game. So back to why I'm revealing this.....I was the one struggling with him not being able to play. I mean, I LOVE to watch him play and now I couldn't? Not my idea of how things should go. But I am not in charge. The sooner I realize this and accept it, the easier my life might be. Because in the scheme of things a couple of games in your freshman year is a small price to play for a healthy body later. THAT is what it is really about. That, and maybe allowing Jacob a chance to sit back and REALLY WANT his time to play. His desire to play at this moment is through the roof. He hates standing on the side and watching. My prayer is for complete healing and restoration for his leg and a fervent desire to get out and prove what he is made of. And for myself.....a desire to sit back and enjoy the ride. So, YES I love to watch my kids play sports. YES, I am "that" mom that cheers a little too loudly. and YES, I will most likely stumble a couple of times before I get this right. But....with God's help, I can do anything.